Conflicted.

So have you ever met somenone,
Someone who acts the sweetest at first, and the other second acts like he doesn't care. Ever met someone like that? No? Keep it that way.
People like that are impossible to live with. Those people have a conflicted way of thinking and talking.

It's like: I love you, but I can't. But you have to know I really love you. But I just can't. But I love you.

yeah sure, screw you. o_O

I mean. WTF?! What can someone possible do with that?
Those people give you hope and break you down in the same sentence.
That's the worst possible way, cause you don't know what to feel.
And the worst part is, in the end you still don't have a clue what to do.
While in the beginning, you just wanted to know what that someone was thinking and feeling.
AND THEN. You get that.

And you're not a single step further.

Fuck.

Luvvv <3333333333333333333333

happiness.

Alohaaaaa! =]

hehe, you know that feeling? Everything is going perfect, you're happy. It's all going the way it should go. But you're starting to get that feeling, that something is gonna go wrong. really wrong. Then you're trying to figure out: What could possibly go wrong?!
You're wishing it's not gonna steal away you're happiness. But you can't figure out what it is. So you're walking around happy, but deep inside you know it's not gonna last very long.

That sucks you know! That feeling is making the time you're happy (that isn't gonna last long) less happy.

Of course you know deep inside what it is about. It's probably something/someone you wanted very badly. You're happy cause you got it. But you know you're gonna lose it eventually in a way. You already knew that before you got it. But it didn't stop you from wanting it. Unfortunally.

So let me get this straight. You're happy because you got what you wanted, but during that happiness you already knew that the thing that caused your happiness is gonna be gone any second. So the thing that caused your happiness is gonna destroy your happiness?

That's not making any sence. But it's also making a lot of sence.

So. I don't know what I wanted to reach with this.
But you don't always have to reach something.
I just wanted to share! =]


Luvvvvvv <333333333333333333333333

Think you're helping me?

Hello lovers! =]

I wasn't here for a while. That's because I wanted to talk to you about a certain subject, but I didn't want you all to react. =]

I'm a little bit frustrated about some people last days. Everybody's getting into my business. I can't stand that!! You can try to help me by giving your opinion or advice. But don't force me to have the same opinion!!! It's still my decision to make!

SO STOP SAYING YOU KNOW WHAT'S BEST FOR ME.
cause you don't.

I want friends who stand on my side, even when they know I'm making a mistake. They're there when I make my mistakes and support me when I realised I made a mistake. Those friends are helping me!
The friends who always know better and try to make your decisions and push you in the direction they think is right. Those friends only complicate things.
And why in the hell would you think that's helping me?

Ofcourse you can see way before me I'm making a mistake, But it's not helping me to keep repeating that when I don't wanna believe I'm making a mistake.
And second of all you never know everything. I'm in the situation, you're someone who is looking from the outside. You don't know the inside-stories. trust me.
I can tell you that I'm telling you everything! every detail.
But you really expect me to let you feel how I feel?
That's impossible.

So. the big point is.
Don't try to make me do the thing you think is right for me. If you can't resist yourself and still wanna do that. then screw you =]

That's what I wanted to share with you. =]

Luvvvv<33333333333333333333333

Schoooooooooooooool =]

Hello world, here I am! =]
Ohw god. There it is again. I think of hello world and that song pops in my head xD
But you knew that already right? =P

So. My first week of school ended yesterday! =]
It was sort of fun =P I'm working hard and I'm getting an satisfaction out of it ^^
So I'm gonna keep doing that! Next to the working part it's also fun to see everyone again! =]

I can't imagine that this is our last year! =[
It's making me sad, because I know we can't go back to high school ever again!
We're closing a part of our lives. That sucks! =[

I hope I'm not gonna lose every friend I have after high school!
But when we all keep contacting eachother, it can work =]

BUT! FIRST WE HAVE TO FINISH THIS YEAR! xD
So, Now I'm going to Amsterdam!
I will see/type you!! <3333333


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