Explanation

*sigh*

It's been a while. I'm sorry.
And can I be honest?
I'm only making this one, cause I think the last post is too long ago.

I guess the reason is that I'm tired of blogging how my situation is.
When you read my blog, every message is different.
The first one I'm feeling great, the next one bad. And so on.

I mean, If I blogged the previous month of my life. It is gonna be exactly that.
good-bad-good-bad-good.

Two things about this.
First. It would have been exactly the same as the messages of the months before the previous month. xD So you were gonna read the same messages again and again only wrapped up in other words and sentences.
Second. Life is supposed to be that way. Without the good, you don't have the bad. Without the bad, you don't have the good.
You should live with lucky moments and the break-downs.
But what's the point of me telling you those moments on this blog?

That's what came to my mind evertime I opened a "new message" on this blog.
After opening that, and thinking that way. I closed it.

Still love you =]

Great!

Hello handsome people! <3

I'm happy you know? =] Everything is going the way I'm wanting it to go! FINALLY! [A]
I'm just asking myself why this couldn't happen earlier, But I don't have the answer.
And I'm not really needing the answer, I just want it to keep on being this way. =]

Friends are great, Music is always great, Love is great, Familie is great, School's great. =]
IT'S JUST ALL GREAT! <333

I also got a few exciting things going, so I've got a lot of fun to look forward to!

Boring right? =] I haven't got ANYTHING to complain! xD

hihihihi! <33

Luvvvv <33333333333333333333333

Conflicted.

So have you ever met somenone,
Someone who acts the sweetest at first, and the other second acts like he doesn't care. Ever met someone like that? No? Keep it that way.
People like that are impossible to live with. Those people have a conflicted way of thinking and talking.

It's like: I love you, but I can't. But you have to know I really love you. But I just can't. But I love you.

yeah sure, screw you. o_O

I mean. WTF?! What can someone possible do with that?
Those people give you hope and break you down in the same sentence.
That's the worst possible way, cause you don't know what to feel.
And the worst part is, in the end you still don't have a clue what to do.
While in the beginning, you just wanted to know what that someone was thinking and feeling.
AND THEN. You get that.

And you're not a single step further.

Fuck.

Luvvv <3333333333333333333333

happiness.

Alohaaaaa! =]

hehe, you know that feeling? Everything is going perfect, you're happy. It's all going the way it should go. But you're starting to get that feeling, that something is gonna go wrong. really wrong. Then you're trying to figure out: What could possibly go wrong?!
You're wishing it's not gonna steal away you're happiness. But you can't figure out what it is. So you're walking around happy, but deep inside you know it's not gonna last very long.

That sucks you know! That feeling is making the time you're happy (that isn't gonna last long) less happy.

Of course you know deep inside what it is about. It's probably something/someone you wanted very badly. You're happy cause you got it. But you know you're gonna lose it eventually in a way. You already knew that before you got it. But it didn't stop you from wanting it. Unfortunally.

So let me get this straight. You're happy because you got what you wanted, but during that happiness you already knew that the thing that caused your happiness is gonna be gone any second. So the thing that caused your happiness is gonna destroy your happiness?

That's not making any sence. But it's also making a lot of sence.

So. I don't know what I wanted to reach with this.
But you don't always have to reach something.
I just wanted to share! =]


Luvvvvvv <333333333333333333333333

Think you're helping me?

Hello lovers! =]

I wasn't here for a while. That's because I wanted to talk to you about a certain subject, but I didn't want you all to react. =]

I'm a little bit frustrated about some people last days. Everybody's getting into my business. I can't stand that!! You can try to help me by giving your opinion or advice. But don't force me to have the same opinion!!! It's still my decision to make!

SO STOP SAYING YOU KNOW WHAT'S BEST FOR ME.
cause you don't.

I want friends who stand on my side, even when they know I'm making a mistake. They're there when I make my mistakes and support me when I realised I made a mistake. Those friends are helping me!
The friends who always know better and try to make your decisions and push you in the direction they think is right. Those friends only complicate things.
And why in the hell would you think that's helping me?

Ofcourse you can see way before me I'm making a mistake, But it's not helping me to keep repeating that when I don't wanna believe I'm making a mistake.
And second of all you never know everything. I'm in the situation, you're someone who is looking from the outside. You don't know the inside-stories. trust me.
I can tell you that I'm telling you everything! every detail.
But you really expect me to let you feel how I feel?
That's impossible.

So. the big point is.
Don't try to make me do the thing you think is right for me. If you can't resist yourself and still wanna do that. then screw you =]

That's what I wanted to share with you. =]

Luvvvv<33333333333333333333333

Schoooooooooooooool =]

Hello world, here I am! =]
Ohw god. There it is again. I think of hello world and that song pops in my head xD
But you knew that already right? =P

So. My first week of school ended yesterday! =]
It was sort of fun =P I'm working hard and I'm getting an satisfaction out of it ^^
So I'm gonna keep doing that! Next to the working part it's also fun to see everyone again! =]

I can't imagine that this is our last year! =[
It's making me sad, because I know we can't go back to high school ever again!
We're closing a part of our lives. That sucks! =[

I hope I'm not gonna lose every friend I have after high school!
But when we all keep contacting eachother, it can work =]

BUT! FIRST WE HAVE TO FINISH THIS YEAR! xD
So, Now I'm going to Amsterdam!
I will see/type you!! <3333333


Luvvvvv <3333333333333333333333333

Love Living [L]

Hello My people! ;D

Sorry, It is a few days ago, again xD
But you wanna know why I didn't place anything? Because I'm having a good time! ;D
Nice to hear right? ^^

I'M HAPPY! :D
I mean, everything is going the way I want. I'm having fun with all my friends.
I've never been so close to them! =) I missed that!

You wanna know why I'm now so close and wasn't so close last months.
well.. one word: LOVE!

Now I have the power about my love-life.
And everything is better! ;D
I'm happier, because there are no loveproblems.

I wanna keep on going like this! =)
I'm liking it!

My new motto is: When love comes, it comes. When it won't, it won't.

See you in a while! ;D
Next week it's party time ^^
And after that I have to go to school! : O 9 months, and then high school is over.
BUT I DON'T WANNA THINK ABOUT THAT!

Luvvvvvvvvvv <333333333333333333

Love?

Hiii all you! ;D;D

It's been a long time, right!? That's my fault, (of course xD) I was in portugal! ;D
It was awesome! =) I'm gonna go back there again for sure. I haven't seen enough.

So how are you all doing?
and how is the love this summer? ^^

Everybody needs some love in the summer, I hope you're all getting some! You deserve it ;)

You know, I talked a lot about love last weeks with my friends.
Everybody is trying to figure out their love-life.
You've got the most fucked up situations. A lot of long-distance relationships.
You met someone, start to give your heart to them. (even though you know their gonna leave)
So most of them try to just go for the love. Try to work it out, and forget the fact someone's living on the other side of the world.

But some of them try to ignore the love. They can only see the fact that it's not gonna work because it's a long distance.

But I just don't understand how you can ignore something that's as powerful as love. How can you not put everything on risk to make it work.
You can at least try right? If it's gonna break then you know that it's because of the distance, not because you didn't try.

So.. that's my point. Never forget to love.

I missed you ;)

Luvvvvvvvvvvvvv <33333333333333333

long time no "see"

Hellllooooo every boy, every girl! <33

OMG! I posted nothing for like 4 days! :P That's like, a disaster! O_o
So I got to, like, make it up to you ^^ (Don't you love it when I put the word like in every sentence? :P It's so annoying, that I love to do it (A)(6))

My life the last days:
tatatatam... xD
Monday I had my chemistry lab. It went well! :D I was so nervous but I got an 7.3! <333
SO happy about that :P

Tuesday I went to WALIBI WORLD with my friend L. I got this thing with the express (a attraction!) I told L, that everytime I'm in Walibi World that attraction is closed. So we walked towards it, and GUESS WHAT! IT WAS CLOSED! O_o
But one changing part in the story.... At the end of the day, they fixed the problem! ;DDD
So we went two times in a row in the express! ;D It was an awesome day, so much fun <333

Wednesday was sleeping until one o'clock for me (A)(A) That evening I helped with my friend M at the graduation of the HAVO people this year. (That's a group of friends, we're gonna miss =( because they're leaving) M and I had a lot of fun! =)) Let's hope next year is our turn! ^^

Thursday-evening I went to my other friend L, Her brother had a graduation party ^^
We were the BBQ girls xD awesome right? ;D

Today I watched soccer with my other friend L (Walibi girl ;P) We are both too fanatic. We were yelling at the television and jumping on the bed xD It was a very exciting match! BUT WE WON!!!!! semifinals, here we are! ^^
And this evening my friend B and I had a boring moment! So he picked me up with his scooter and we chilled ;D Then he drove me back with his scooter! (I really love those things xD) It was so much fun, we seriously need to do that more often! :D

So that was my week. pretty busy as always(A)(A) I love being busy:P I don't know why. =)) I hate it when you're just sitting in your room doing nothing. For me doing nothing is fun for I guess max 2 hours!! xD
I'm gonna do some more things on my blog this week! =))
about some subjects I want to talk about!

I missed you xD (drama drama :P)
Luvvvvvvvvvvvv<33333333333333333

A Sunday =))

Hello my lovely humans! <3

I really love this weather! I always feel happier when the weather is like this.
I don't know why, but it's true! :P

I was chilling with my friend L yesterday! It was really nice! :P
We were getting a tan and swimming! =) It was really fun! <333
But one little thing wasn't funny. We both have a lot of mosquito bites!
So we're scratching like apes xD (apes!? :P)

After that whole day in de sun, I decided to go play tennis. (why right? :P)
Intensive this time:P It was pretty hot and I played pretty fanatic. (A)
After that I was broken right xD But It felt good to do some exercise. =))

Do you know the feeling? When you're sporting until you almost die? xD
That feeling! I really love it! =))
But maybe it's me. Because you all know I'm weird right? :P
So you can expect me to have some weird feelings and weird actions. (A)

I got my chemistry lab today. :S I'm a little bit nervous!
I hope I'm gonna do it well! =) At 12.45 I have to start!:P
Then I'm officially free! <33333333


Luvvvvvvvvvv<33333333333333

The little things! =)

Yooo everyone! ^^

I wanted to talk to you about something. again xD
You all read the message of Angelpie. (if you don't, start doing it!:P) Her and her killer heels? (A)
She shortly told you something about little mistakes boys make?
I'm gonna tell you something more about that! =))

We came to the conclusion boys are not that smart on the subject how to handle a girl. :P (no offence (a))
They're making their relationships or flirts so hard.
All because their making those stupid little mistakes. (A)
I mean, when you text (that means you have to start texting, not responding at hers:P)she knows you think about her.
That's costing you a whole discussion about why you're not giving her enough attention. xD
SO 1. Text her!

But you really shouldn't clame her either! Please don't do that. Girls wanna breath too. (some girls maybe not xD) But my opinion is that you should really have your own life. If you don't you have to live with the fact that I do have my own life. You're a big part of it, but you aren't all of it. So try to find the balance between giving her attention and let her do her thing. (and of course the other way around too. This is also a tip for the girls =P)
That's what I would love in a boy =))
So that's point 2. :P

There's something bothering me about some guys. A must is that you should be honest. All the time, about everything. Don't hide things because it's hard or because it's gonna hurt her. Just be honest please! That would make things so much easier. =)

the conclusion is....... tatatatatatatadam.. xD
DON'T FORGET THE LITTLE THINGS!
they're so much more important than you realize. seriously. trust me =))

And of course, have fun with eachother! ^^ You can always say what's bordering you, but don't have to make a problem of every little thing. In the end it's still his own choice if he's gonna change anything about himself.

So I have given enough life-changing advice again. xDxD
Hope it's helping you!

Luvvvvvvvvv<3333333333

Last two days! (L)

Hii there!! ;D;D
I have to tell you so much! : P A lot of fun things happened in two days =DD
I was shopping yesterday with L, we had so much fun! :P Seriously she and her shoes.
That's too funny xD <333

I had last night/morning also a party of my friend B.
Seriously, I loved it! :P
Yeah. we finally met TST. xD He is really nice! =) And you can laugh with him, a lot. xD
It was an awesomeeee night! :P We have to do it again sometime! <33
We gave an really interesting present to B. (6)
But I'm not gonna tell you, because it's private and the internet is not really private xD (A)
So I had so much fun the last two days. =)
That's making the testweek a little less hurtfull o_O
Monday last test and then time to celebrate ^^

Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv <33333333

Unofficially my last day xD

Hiii all you!! =))
This is gonna be a short one! =(
I have to be at school in an halfhour! O_o
This is unofficial my last day! I got my two last tests! :P
(on monday I got practicum :S But you don't have tot prepare anything! :P)

SO I hope it all went well!
Seee you sooon <3333
(told you, it was gonna be a short one xD)

Wish me luck! <3

Luvvvvvvvvvv<3333333333333

How to lose a guy in 10 days! ^^

Helloooooooooo humans! xD
I'm sooooo tired! : Seriously, I can sleep any place, any time.
But I have to get up early everyday -_-
And now you're all thinking like: get over yourself, 2 days! You can keep it together until then!
BUT I'M NOT OVER-REACTING :P (Maybe just a little (A))
Do you write over-reacting like that? Or do you write it like: overreacting or over reacting? xD meh. :P Does it matter? xD

OH! I wanted to talk to you about a movie I saw last night.
It's really a shame I didn't see it earlier while it's a really old movie : O
BUT I LOVED IT! So I guess you all know how to lose a guy in 10 days? ^^
It's seriously awesome, you're laughing like every minute and he's hot (A)(A)

She's acting like the crazy girl (she's trying to get dumped in 10 days:P)
But he has to make her fall in love in 10 days.
It's really funny xD And you can all guess how it's gonna end.....

NO I'M NOT GONNA TELL YOU! (6)
{not that it's so hard to guess. it's not an obvious end at all (uch uch))

So.. this must be an very interesting blog to read. (uch uch)
I've got a really really really exciting life. you can see that right? xDxD

I don't know, I'm not really telling you something about my life, am I?
Maybe someday I'm gonna do that. But now I'm going to practice my math!
TOMORROW EXAM! O_o I have to get a good grade. =DD
But I practiced a lot, so I got some trust in myself! :P

Luvvvvvvv <333333333333

Testweek O_o

Alohaa to you all! =DD
I'm back. ^^ (chips is back, we're back in black xD)
Sorry for that. (A) Sometimes lyrics of songs (sometimes stupid songs, like this one) just pop in my head. It's really funny but sometimes pretty annoying. (when it's a song like this one, I mean come on chipz -_- (sorry for the ones who like them xD (I hope no one who reads my blog likes them because then I don't want you to read my blog xD))(love you(A)))
DAMN HOW MANY ()()() can you put in one sentence (A)(A)

You have to get used to this crazy way of talking/typing because I'm almost always like this xD
But to the point, I got testweek this week. I was pretty nervous because I had to get some good grates. I'm working my ass off, So I hope it's working.
If it's all going the way I planned NEXT YEAR IS MY LAST YEAR! WOEHOE. xD
But first I have to survive this week.
Tatatatammmmmmm. (6)

So. I got my english fluency test today.
I don't mind talking in english (you can see that right? ^^)
So I thought it was fun to do. : P

Our english teacher is very cool! ;D
I mean, he is awesome. He's not just an ordinary teacher.
He's open-minded, funny, sarcastic. Really you want him to like you =)
So it's even more fun talking to him than to an other more boring teacher (6)
Sooo Mister O! You're the best! ;D;D

Now I'm gonna finish this message. =P
Otherwise it's gonna be a long one with not much in it (Not that I'm saying there's much in it now(a))

So.. Luvvvvvv <3333333333333

Heartbreaker?

SERIOUSLY, I mean two messages on one day. That's a little enthousiastically (is that even a word? xD)
BUT I DON'T CARE xD This is my blog, so I can do whatever I wanna do. (6)

Okay, I wanna tell you something about a serious subject.
I guess you all now the heartbreaker-type?
Have you met one? OH you're dating one? STOP IT RIGHT NOW!
Trust me, I was in your situation a few months ago.

I even know what you think right now: fuck off, my life, my boy, my decision.
But trust me, I was you! You have to stop right now. Otherwise he's gonna hurt you big time. Or even worse you're gonna have to hurt yourself.

Because it's gonna go like this:

Once upon a time there was a girl, she fell for a boy while she knew he was gonna bring nothing but trouble. But yeah, it was too late right. You were unstoppable (and all that because a little butterfly in your stomach O_o) So you thought, what the hell, I wanna go for it. So you went for it, 100%. You gave him everything you had, hoping he will give it back one day. But he's not gonna give it back.
He's gonna use every bit of love you give, till you're empty. Then you realize, you're empty because he's not giving you any love back! You will end up broken, and he is living his life happily ever after with a heart full of undeserved love.

So, don't do it. Unless you wanna go through this all yourself?
Be my guest. But don't dare saying I didn't warn you.

Hehehehe, sorry for this explosion. (A)
But I want you to know how I think about the heartbreaker-type.
So just don't start with it (No matter how cute they are (6))

Luvvvvvvvvvvv <33333

Uhw. Introduction? xD

Okaaaaay. Hellooooooo I'm Niqee!
I'm starting this blog because my friend L started it.
I thought Jeeeeeeeej that's fun! ;D
So lalalalalala <333
I'm gonna try this for real. But this has to sound familiar : P
Everybody started a diary for real somewhere in their life. And you all thought: This time I'm gonna write something in it everyday! HAHA NOT! xD (sorry for the ones who did! (A))
But SERIOUSLY I'm gonna keep doing this! : P nah. I'm gonna try to keep doing this (A)(A)

First of all... Don't judge my english. I'm working on it. =)))
And I know for sure this blog is gonna help me with my english!
So it's fun and educating ^^

Sooo this is my introduction! ;D;D
Lalalalala. Btw this blog is about everything and nothing.
Yeah.... A mystery right? ^^
Everybody wants to read about everything and nothing right? xD
Otherwise, don't bother reading this xD

Soooo.... Luvvvvvvv <333333